When relationships don't work

..............you hold on to your kids like never before, knowing too well that this might snap too! It's a very very insecure feeling. You try and divert yourself by reading,exercising but the unhappy ,insecure feeling is there ,haunting you all the time.

Its even worse when children grow up and leave home. You long for that one email and always check to see if they are online in their waking hours. Its even more when all along one has not chalked one's social life and have been totally devoted to the children, even if it meant wrapping their gifts for the birthdays they had to go to.Their stay at home is so very short !

Feel happy that out of all this,they have emerged to be nice ,sensitive human beings. Hope they always remain so .One day might feel a proud 'Mamma' ,that the time inveseted on them was truly worth it.

When relationships don't work

..............you hold on to your kids like never before, knowing too well that this might snap too! It's a very very insecure feeling. You try and divert yourself by reading,exercising but the unhappy ,insecure feeling is there ,haunting you all the time.

Its even worse when children grow up and leave home. You long for that one email and always check to see if they are online in their waking hours. Its even more when all along one has not chalked one's social life and have been totally devoted to the children, even if it meant wrapping their gifts for the birthdays they had to go to.Their stay at home is so very short !

Feel happy that out of all this,they have emerged to be nice ,sensitive human beings. Hope they always remain so .One day might feel a proud 'Mamma' ,that the time inveseted on them was truly worth it.

Its exactly a month!

Its one month today and our son's bravery impressed me beyond words.He left but not once did he breake down in front of any of us.He held on till the very end,when we know he's gone much against his wishes.Hope god gives him lots of strength like his father has.
Wonder how its for others when their children leave home at the raw age of 17 and that too so,so far away.Some say why r u so upset?I tell them we'll exchange notes when their time comes.Or is it because i was too close to my kids and was'nt prepared for this?Like i took a long,long time to recover from my brother's departure.We were very close too.Guess,never should we take anybody for granted.Neverthe less,i donot regret giving my 101% to my kids and brother.I love these three very,very dearly.Shall remember the happy times and live the rest of my life.

nest's shrinking!

Time to say goodbye to one of my birdieS!This has actually taken me by much surprise,too soon!Thought will fly around the nest for some more time.The birdie was hoping for this too..............this is what has saddened me the most.All i ask God is give him lots of mental strength to be away.....initial few months are going to be tough for him.

The question is how do i block the thought of his departure and be tearless and brave when its time to say goodbye.Wish i didnt believe in handling my birdies single-handedly!I think this stemmed from the fact that i knew only my ayah and she ,whe she did,left me without a second glance.Even today i want to go and meet her just one more time.Don't think she would ever guess what her going did to me.

funny weather!

It's funny weather out here!Time for winter to go away and it's raining hail!There has been rain for the last 3 days and it's nippy.I'd almost finished hovering blankets,washed woollens to keep away.....What a lot of work again!It's cloudy again today and it's threatening to rain anytime now.
Believe Hilary C has taken up the issue of GLOBAL WARMING, the Americans have let out more gaseous emissions than any other.In India the MET is normally wrong in its predictions even on a daily basis.It's a serious issue and nobody seem to be talking about it here.

when there's nothing to do!

can be killing!but what about many who claim that they wish there were more than 24 hrs in a day.There was a time when i wished it was so.Working,twokids,running the house........all of these took quite a bit of time and energy.Not that now i've retired from all of these.Most of it i shoulder,but yes,am not working anymore.Feel lost most of the time,.wondering what on earth am i doing?I think it happens to most who are educated and have worked for sometime.
I like to read and write.Also exchange and share views in writing.So have taken to the blog,but don't know how to make people read my blog and leave behind their comments.Everyday i open my blog,hoping that someone has read and written down something for me.I've hope.......

Sleeping in bliss!

I suggested to my husband to seek out SUPPORT GROUPS when he accused me of taking away the whole of the blanket for myself at night. The other day watched the movie 'Look who's talking too'. The husband decides to snip off the blanket into half in the middle of the night when the wife tries to take the whole of the blanket for herself. When I mentioned this to my husband dear he looked anything but amused.